Faith and Trust

A couple of weeks ago, I was at a group and the theme was "Let go and let God." We went around the room sharing things regarding that topic. I shared that I had no problem laying it down, it was the letting it go part that was difficult for me. God gave me an image of me, with a huge, heavy rock, trying to lay it down, but my fingers were glued to the rock. That has been a theme in my life. I have struggled with trusting God too. As a child, I was sexually abused, and after crying out to God to make it stop, I found myself in the grasp of yet another abuser. I have struggled trusting God (or anyone else, for that matter). On the drive home that night, God brought the image of me glued to that rock. I prayed and asked that He would teach me how to let it go. He whispered to my heart a question, "How many fingers do you have on each hand? And how many letters are in the word Faith and trust." There was my answer. In order to let go, I must have faith and trust in my God. As a child, I thought that I was trusting that what I prayed for would come to pass. I now recognize that the trust and faith is that God knows best and will use whatever comes to pass for my good and His glory.

Thankfully in His grip.
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